A Moment in Time


This is a picture of me and my beautiful niece, taken in 2008. Yes, 10 years ago and I can hardly believe that time went by so quickly. I remember this moment that the picture was taken as if it was yesterday. So clearly I remember how we laughed and made jokes on a very cold morning in a small town we visited over the weekend. This was just before we all had to go our separate ways again, after a big family wedding.

Our lives consist of MOMENTS. This picture was taken with a normal camera, not a cellphone like we do these days. We take selfies and capture every simple thing around us and at some point when you go through your pictures, you can hardly remember why you took the picture. No, this was a moment that was captured on a film. A moment that mattered and a moment that brings back good feelings and memories. As I was going through all my ‘old’ photos and remembering the good times and moments, there were also some pictures, which looks good, but I can remember that there were strife and mean words behind the memory. During this time of my reminiscing I received the sad news of a grade 7 boy who committed suicide. Grade 7, he must be about 12 years old…

My heart broke in pieces, although I do not know this boy. Apparently he felt that he was never good enough. The school wanted him on medicine, because he did not concentrate etc. How bad exactly must a 12 year old boy feel to hang himself in his room? This question took me back to my thoughts of MOMENTS. I was wondering how many good and how many bad moments did this boy had in his short 12 years on earth. Moments trigger our memory in the future. So today’s MOMENT will be tomorrows memory!!

I cried before God, asking what is going on in this world that it all seem so dark and hopeless. He answer me in a soft but firm voice, ‘You MUST learn to love’. I always thought I loved my neighbor as myself, but am I just fooling myself, cause I sure can’t fool God. He reminded me that this is not a request, it is a commandment.

Matthew 22:37 – 39 – “Love your neighbor as yourself.”

Jesus help us all!! While thinking of this 12 year old boy, I was crying because what if someone just gave him some more time, and love and patience. What if someone just took the time to make him feel that he is good enough? We MUST love!! We are suppose to represent Jesus, so what if we can just stop and talk to someone that looks a bit sad, or smile at the girl in the grocery store, who’s been standing on her feet all day. What if we can be the one responsible for a HAPPY MOMENT? What if we can be the ones that stops a person from taking his own life, cause we cared and out of that, created a GOOD MOMENT for someone? I read a saying that goes like this; ‘People will forget what you did for them but they will always remember how you made them feel.’
Just take a MOMENT, and pay attention to what is around you. Look people in the eye and ask God to show them to you like He sees them. You might be surprised by the beauty you find within. It only takes a MOMENT!!


The Bible and the Rod…


More and more I see a younger generation of ‘Christian’ business owners, bosses or CEO’s taking on a very sad and scary way of leadership, managing their business and fighting for respect. I see them standing with a Bible in their one hand and a rod in the other. Manipulating and preaching at the same time.

Sad when you think about it. It is almost as if they are scared of someone taking over. Or that some of their staff might actually achieve more than they did. As far as I know the sun is suppose to shine on all of us.

A true LEADER is someone who can run his business, his staff and gain respect with ONLY his Bible in his hand. The one with the Bible and the rod, is firstly a fool, cause everyone can see through that. Secondly he is a glorified manipulator and will never know the meaning of real success or happiness, unless he humbles himself before God and ask for wisdom and guidance.


Help!!! COME ON SOMEONE , i really need a friend right now…..

On the 5th of September, I wrote a blogpost called ‘In Prison with Paul & Silas’….. It is basically about my struggle of 23 years with depression. That post was Part 1. Eversince I posted it, it has been so difficult for me to go back to those emotions and feelings of all those years and events that took place. Is there anyone out there who can relate? I was told to ‘Write what you know’. A few months back I received a prophecy that God will use me to help other women who are suffering with depression. Now…. I feel stuck. 

Help please? I need inspiration, advice or anything that can help. I also do not want to miss out on an opportunity for God to finally use me for some good, in this lifetime. 

Would appreciate your input? 


Bind -ness

About a month ago I woke up with this word, ‘Bind -ness’. Totally confused, seeing that there is no word like that, I asked God everyday what this word means. I knew that there would be some meaning to this, but to hear clearly from God, took some time. So I took to Google to try and figure this one out. Getting nothing more than ‘to tie something together’, I started to think that this was just me and I might be imagining that God gave me this word.

So one morning whilst praying for someone, I said; ‘ Lord, I bind this  sickness in Jesus Name.’ Then God spoke!!! I had the meaning of this ‘word’. God said to me, go and bind every ness  that is not off me. The words started to pop in my head like popcorn!! 












Selfish-ness  ( James 3:15)







“Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. Matt. 18:18

I am sure that you will have some -ness words of your own that you could put to the list. These are all things that are not off God. He promised in Matthew 18:18, that if we bind ANYTHING not off Him, that He would bind it in heaven aswell. We need to take Him at His word and bind these things and not just accept it as part of life or just dealing with everyday life. No, He has so much more instore for us. So next time, you experience something like lets say WEARINESS…. do not just settle for it as part of your day. Stand bold in His word and bind that thing, cause He is your JOY and your STRENGTH. 

Just ❤ the way God speaks to us….. 

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In Prison like Paul & Silas… – Part 1


In prisoners’ chains with bleeding stripes
Paul and Silas prayed that night
And in their pain began to sing
Their chains were loosed and they were free

I bless Your name, I bless Your name
I give You honor, give You praise
You are the Life, the Truth, the Way
I bless Your name, I bless Your name

Some midnight hour if you should find
You’re in a prison in your mind
Reach out and praise, defy those chains
And they will fall in Jesus’ name

We bless Your name, we bless Your name
We give You honor, give You praise
You are the Life, the Truth, the Way
We bless Your name, we bless Your name

You are the Life, the Truth, the Way
We bless Your name, we bless Your name….  by Selah

This morning, for the first time in a very very long time, I did not feel like getting out of bed. I just turned around and covered my head with the blanket. Crying out to God, if this is IT! I have been doing so good these last 2 years, not giving in to any form of depressive thinking. These last few years I have grown so much closer to God and I do believe that He has a calling on my life. But what is happening today? I have started this draft on my blog a few weeks back, and just could not get myself to finish it. This morning while lying in my bed and just crying before God with all these questions in my mind, I clearly felt Him urging me to start writing. He prompted me that there is someone out there feeling exactly like I do today…. “But Lord, I only have 12 followers and they seem to have their lives figured out. What good will my story do?” I asked. So here goes, to any of you reading this. There might just be someone working this thing out for themselves like me.

I love this song, I Bless Your Name, from Selah. While listening to the words, I immediately felt like that is how I felt, emotionally. I was in prison just like Paul and Silas.. Well, that is how it feels when you suffer from depression. Ask anyone? You might think, not another article on DEPRESSION!! But no one is ever too good or even too holy to have to fight this terrible giant. I would like to tell you just a little bit about my story, if you will allow me? If we can get the message to just one person, that there truly is HOPE and FREEDOM in Christ, then it was all worth it. He saved me out of the clutches from this monster, and He wants to save everyone else who will allow Him.

Acts 16:16-40 – We all know the story of Paul and Silas that was sentenced to prison for driving out a spirit from this girl that kept following them. It would seem from the story that she kind of irritated them after a few days, by following them and shouting after them. The Greek translation for this spirit says “spirit of python”. Now it doesn’t take a genius to figure out what a python does. He suffocates his victim. I know this feeling in a less physical way, but believe me, when he gets a hold on you, you will start to feel his grip on you. In my case, the python (enemy) started to constantly remind me of my weaknesses. You see, once someone speaks death over you and you choose to believe it, it is so easy (especially for a sensitive spirit) to believe it. Maybe I just wasn’t strong or spiritually mature enough to cancel these words immediately, once spoken. Since childhood I always felt different than the rest of my family. I was brought up in a loving, strong Christian home, with pastors and praise and worship leaders, but still there was just something different about me. They called me the “sensitive one”. Which I took in a negative way, all these years. Until one day a pastor looked at me and said; “Why don’t you ask God to use your sensitive character for the good of His Glory and Kingdom?”

So my “annoying girl” (spirit of python), if you will, came in the form of all these lies that was spoken over me. They literally followed me. When I was really young, someone very close to me, one day yelled at me; “You are pathetic, and you will stay like that for the rest of your life.” My mistake…. I believed it! For the next 20 years I carried that bag of lies with me. Like everywhere! It dragged me down into some very dark places. The enemy will seize every opportunity that he gets to remind you of that. You even repeat it out loudly when things are going rough. I remember on a certain day, I baked a cake, which came out a total flop. So clearly I can still see myself starting to cry from frustration and yelling to myself; “Just how pathetic are you!!” Those 5 words I repeated many many times in my life.  Proverbs 15:28 – “The heart of the righteous weighs its answers, but the mouth of the wicked gushes evil.” I began to grow roots of bitterness towards this person, not realizing that I have said these words to myself much more than he did.

Matt. 12:34b-35 – “For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. 35 The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him.”

Matt. 15:18 – “But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man ‘unclean’.”

Luke 6:45b – “For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.”

Proverbs 18:21 – “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.”

I began to speak death over myself without knowing it. Not very long after this incident I began to have terrible nightmares. Strange and dark things. A lot of blood and monsters and just dark things, overall. Too difficult to explain it in words. To make matters worse was that in those days it was kind off not an issue that Christians talked about. I thought only “older” people suffer from depression. I was about 19 and had my whole life ahead of me. Trying to keep this away from the people around you, were quite difficult, seeing that I still lived with my parents. My mother is a very strong woman of faith, and also emotionally very strong. She a has raised these strong children, and here I come, the weaker and more “sensitive” one. We have always found it difficult to relate to each other, but now it was even worse. I had to “pull myself together”! That became the answer for everything that I felt for the next few years. Those are also the 3 words I would tell everyone who talks to me about depression, to NOT tell someone who is battling depression. If “PULLING YOURSELF TOGETHER” was the cure for depression, there would not be a single depressed person on this earth. Even worse, those 3 words make the person fighting this, feel even more like no one understands what he/she is going through. And please believe me when I tell you, that is a very lonely place to be……

Part 2 following on Monday, 11 September 2017




How Awesome Are You!!!

Oh, I just quickly had to share this. It is too good not to….

I love to watch Beth Moore’s teachings. Powerful revelation everytime she teaches on a subject. Well, currently I am watching “The most talented people under the sun”. Do yourself a huge favour an go check it out. She lists a few points on how talented God created each one of us and that we all have the ability to do SomeThing.

But check out nr 7!! I just fell in love with these words….. ❤❤

Now I look myself in the mirror every morning, and I declare it over myself. Can you imagine if we all had such confidence in ourselves, our talents, our abilities? We could sure change the world into a much brighter place.


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Gotta Love The Slow Learners….


Just feel like sharing this again today. Be blessed!!

So, I am a bit of a slow learner…. But God loves ALL His children, even the slow ones. I recently read an article in some random magazine where someone (can truly not even remember the magazine’s name, nor the writer of the article) claimed that the gift of miracle acts are not for the present time, but was more likely Biblical history, and well, it was something that was more or less just meant for Jesus and his disciples to do. Oh boy, does this guy need to read his Bible!! But, at least this got me curious and made me take a really deep look at what the Word says about “MIRACLES”. So for this I have to thank him.

As I read 1 Corinthians 12:7-11, the slow learner in me saw something MIRACULOUS!!
7 Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good. 8 To one there is given through the Spirit a message of wisdom, to another a message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, 9 to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, 10 to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds of tongues,[a] and to still another the interpretation of tongues.[b]11 All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he distributes them to each one, just as he determines.

Now, I know for many of you this is like old news, and you have read this a thousand times and understand this, but for me it was a NEW thing. A Wonderful Thing!! In my mind the gift of healing, was a miracle. When someone gets healed supernaturally, it is a MIRACLE. But for the first time I saw that Healing and Miraculous Powers are two different gifts. To think that I could have the Gift of Miraculous Acts!!! Strongly I have to disagree with this person who wrote this article, that the gift of miracles are not relevant in our time.

I believe that we are seeing a whole new level of the gift of prophecies arising. The gift of speaking in tongues are just as strong and believers are realizing the wonderful and amazing power that comes from praying in tongues. Why would this gift be put there, in the middle of these verses, laying out the Gifts of the Spirit, and not be relevant. I also strongly believe that we are going to see more and more miracles in the last days. That is why it is so important for believers to share and testify about their miracles. Needless to say, I am as excited as a child on Christmas morning! “I want this gift, Lord?”

That was my first words after my new found revelation. I suppose in my mind we received miracles when we had enough faith. Which we do need, but the bible says that this is a Spiritual Gift. Along with prophecy, speaking in tongues, distinguishing between spirits, interpretation of tongues, etc…..

The word MIRACLE in Dictionary.com means:

1. an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
2. such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of God.
3. a wonder; marvel.

4. a wonderful or surpassing example of some quality:

a miracle of modern acoustics.

I love what it says in verse 31 – “But eagerly desire the greater gifts.” How we desire to do God’s will. How we desire to do what is pleasing unto Him. My deepest desire is to live my life in such a way that it will display the Greatness, Mercy and Love of Jesus. My desire is to lay hands on the sick and they be healed, to pray for situations and see how God changes things miraculously. I hold on to what Psalm 37:4 says; “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

Lord, I pray that You will grant me the desires of my heart, according to Your will. You know the desires of my heart, Lord, cause You have placed them there. So when you find me ready for this wonderful gift of Your Holy Spirit, let it be so. Let it be an example of Your Greatness and Power and let Your Name be praised forevermore….. Amen


The Greatest Stepfather


This painting had me at first glance. I could not stop looking at it and have tried to find the artist who painted it, but with no success. It just captured my heart!!

It felt like a hundred short stories told in one picture. I looked at the little boy with his curly hair, playing innocently at his fathers feet. If you are a parent, you will know this scene all too well. Yet, as I looked at this little boy, and realized that he would carry the weight of the world on his shoulders, I just cried…. Yes, I am that sensitive!!! :-)He had to learn carpentry, and it was on the same ‘material’ that he worked with as a young boy and man, that He gave His life for us.

Then my focus turned to Joseph, the father. I know, there are many sermons on Joseph, though we…

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The Greatest Stepfather

This painting had me at first glance. I could not stop looking at it and have tried to find the artist who painted it, but with no success. It just captured my heart!!

It felt like a hundred short stories told in one picture. I looked at the little boy with his curly hair, playing innocently at his fathers feet. If you are a parent, you will know this scene all too well. Yet, as I looked at this little boy, and realized that he would carry the weight of the world on his shoulders, I just cried…. Yes, I am that sensitive!!! 🙂 He had to learn carpentry, and it was on the same ‘material’ that he worked with as a young boy and man, that He gave His life for us.

Then my focus turned to Joseph, the father. I know, there are many sermons on Joseph, though we cannot find when and how Joseph died. But I realized, (and please don’t shoot me for this term?) that Joseph was a modern day stepfather. Now, we all know that you get really good and really bad stepfathers. But I was thinking, what a special man, this Joseph must have been for God to entrust His Son with him. Would you give your child just to anyone? No, certainly not!! I believe that God created Joseph especially for such a task as this. Joseph was a kind and loving man, even before he became a father. God knew that bringing up a child is such a great responsibility, and even more so His only begotten Son. Can you imagine being the one, along with Mary, to see Jesus take His first steps, say His first words…..

I think I would have loved to meet and get to know this man, Joseph. Handpicked by God Himself to raise Jesus. Wow, what a big assignment. One person describes him as follows:

“Joseph stands as a testimony to the value of integrity, obedience, faithfulness, and especially to honoring the entrusted role of ‘fatherhood’.” 

In this day and age, I do believe that some men could learn a lot from Joseph. Some men don’t really know how to bring up a child of his own, nonetheless a child who is not of his own blood. Joseph knew his calling on earth and took it very seriously. Fathers need to step up once again and be leaders. Be the priest of your house and your family. Show a child with love and kindness which way to go. Life is not a competition about who is strongest and the best. Although that is what society wants us to believe. We all know the saying; ‘Time is money’. I believe TIME is more valuable than money. Fathers need to make time to spend in Gods Word and learn from Jesus’s example. Strong men, strong leaders and loving fathers comes from having love and stability from parents who take their role seriously. Now I know there are many many children growing up without a father and I thank God for mothers, who are strong to do this job all alone. But should you know of such a mother, why not do a good thing, and take her child to a park and play ball for half an hour? Teach him how to ride a bike, catch a fish. Teach him to always respect his mother and appreciate what she does as a single mom. Invest some time and love in our children and young people. Proverbs 22:6 says; ‘Train child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.’ Notice the scripture doesn’t just say YOUR child, but A child. That is what Joseph did, without condition.  I do believe that there is much to learn from this Joseph. As a father, a parent, a human being, and a child of God.

Matthew 1:16 – And Jacob begot Joseph the husband of Mary, of whom was born Jesus who is called Christ.